Tomorrow I have my very last chemo.
I dread it.
The last one was so hard on me. I still ache all over. I'm weak and fatigued, plagued by hot flashes, insomnia, numb feet and tingling hands. I can't go to work. I can't walk the dog. I'm beaten down. It's been 2 weeks since my last chemo and I still feel like shit.
How much farther down I can go? How much worse can I feel? Will I even be able to walk in a week?
I so do not want to do this.
But I will. One last time.
Have I mentioned how much I hate cancer treatment?
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I think perhaps yes.
On April 3, 2007, I heard the dreaded words "you have cancer."
Is this the definition of oval?
I think perhaps yes.
About Me
- LeeAnne
- I'm a 46 year old single mom living a full and rich life. Or I was anyway. Now I am in getting back to regular life after cancer treatment.
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Links I Have Become Perhaps Overly Attached To:
- Good Reads (like myspace, only for readers to share what they've read. Fabulous!)
- Cute Overload (when you just need to look at baby animals)
- Travelcheese (my talented Sissy's little corner o' the web)
- As The Tumor Turns (An amazing writer. I wish I were her neighbor.)
- I Am The Bulldog (Fellow BC Ass-Kicker Liz from the OC)
- Imagine Bright Futures II (Another BC Ass Kicker from PDX)
- Follow Lingling as She Gives Lymphoma a Beatdown (this blog is like a novel. I am in awe.)
- KAFN8ME (my friend Kel's knitting blog)
what I know
- -stage IIA breast cancer
- -invasive ductal carcinoma, 1.1 cm
- -1 lymph node with cancer, so all removed
- -lumpectomy with a little extra taken out
- -estrogen receptor: positive (95%)
- -progesterone receptor: positive (100%)
- -proliferation rate: intermediate
- -HER-2/neu: negative
I love to read
9 comments:
{{{LAM}}} I feel so bad for you. I hope tomorrow goes okay. I can't wait for the day that they have a better way to treat cancer than to put poison in your body. It's just crazy!
I bet it won't be as bad as the last time, keep thinking positive thoughts! BTW, I'll be in NOLA this weekend. Do you want me to pick you up something?
Love
Kimi
I know it may seem that there is no more strength left, but there is. You can do this. You can do this. You can do this. Just hang on.
One more time into the abyss and then you can start your journey back.
You can do it!! It is better than any other choice, you know that. The worse you feel, the worse the cancer cells feel! You are better than them so kick it lady!
You can do it Lammie!! Just one more time, and you are DONE! You'll have SO kicked that cancer's ass. We're with you today!
XOXO
Kelly
Hey cool Leeanne!
I'll be thinking about you all day. You can do it!!! I know you can!!! I beleve in you!!! You are so brave!!!
luv,
Maren :)
Cancer treatment sucks. It's nearing the end of this season and good riddance to it!
Sooner than you realize perhaps, you'll be able to walk again, run even, in the sun, in the rain. Hang in. We're all here for you.
Love N
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...Just what makes that little old ant, think he can move that rubber tree plant...I believe I can fly, I believe I can touch the sky...Raindrops keep falling on my head, but that doesnt mean my eyes will soon be turning red...
Dont MAKE me call you and sing over the phone, you think you feel bad now? You dont want your ears to hurt with everything else do you?
{{{{LAM}}}}} Get in there girl. We got your back.
Just thinking of you today. :)
As horrible as this feels, and I know it's really horrible, just be glad they have a treatment. Soon this will all be just a distant memory.
I've been thinking of you all day knowing that tomorrow is your last treatment. Yeah!
Love, Karen
I met you at Amelia's 40th b-day party. I'll be sending positive thoughts your way over the next several days. Keep up the fight!
Dr. Direction
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