Back to it

I had the most amazing vacation, filled with the perfect mix of quiet and connecting with incredible people in a beautiful, soul-filled place. All those hours of reading, staring at the horizon, listening to the jungle, laughing over wonderful meals (that I didn't have to cook! Or clean up after!) and deciding when to turn over were amazingly therapeutic. Now I sit in front of the computer and nothing comes out. This is a good thing. Being able to turn off the internal dialogue, at will, is important. I think they call it meditation... Wreaks havoc on my creative process though.

Tomorrow I have what I like to think of as "Chemo U" which will leave me more educated than I could possibly want to be. Friday I am having surgery to get my port put in. My parents are coming to town for that. My first chemo treatment is scheduled for Thursday the 17th. From all I've learned, getting the treatment itself isn't bad - it's several days later that it starts to suck. I'll know more after tomorrow's appointment and if I learn anything exciting, believe me, I'll share.

One thing I did learn for sure on my vacation: I am going to be okay. God told me so. Loudly. Several times.

Amazing.

A Vacation

We all need vacations from time to time. Vacations provide an opportunity to escape our everyday lives, and to rest and recharge our life-batteries.

I am going on vacation tomorrow and this is where I am going:

V E R A N A

Doesn't it look amazing? I have packed 5 books, a big art journal, many colored pencils, and very little else. I don't plan on doing much of anything. Unless I really, really want to.

When I come back I will think about cancer again. I found out today that I will be having chemo before radiation, so I suppose that surgery to put in a port will be the next step, followed by what freaks me out the most: the beginning of chemo. Still no exact start date... but there's plenty of time to think about it next week.

After my vacation.